Life

Walking back alone at 2am made me think weird thoughts.
I realised that if I were gone suddenly...like perished or died.No one would be with me.
If I were unlucky to have been killed on the streets or murdered, No one would realise that I am gone.No one would call to check on me.
If I were to die in the house,it might take at least a week or till my body stinked so badly that the neighbours had to inform the police.
I should really start writing my will.
Not because I have a fortune to distribute,but i have things to say.
Dear MinLai,
If I were gone,I hope u can help me settle my final wishes.Provided you are aware that I am dead though...
Whatever money I have left,use it to settle the funeral,3 days will do,at SinMing Funeral Parlour.DO NOT notify any of my 'family' members!No friends too.You don't have to be there 24/7.Just before my departure into the hot,burning cinder will do.
I do not want anyone else to know where's my urn except you.
If there are remaining money,please donate to the orphans.
You can have all my branded goods.=)
I love you.
Dear Andy,
although we aren't really close,and you might not even realised that I am gone...
I love you too.
Dear Jiawei,
please pass my cpf money to my granny.DO NOT let her know that I am dead.
And Thank you for all your care and concern while we were together.

Lastly,I need to add.
Ah Gu,I really did not say I want to disown you.Why do you listen only to your wife?
It hurted when I heard you asking me to move out so that your family can move in.
It hurted when you shouted vulgarities at me through the phone that night.
I swear that I have never said that I dislike your wife.Your elder daughter do tell lies.
After that night,I hate your wife.
I love you ,ah gu.
Ah mah,I don't really understand why you kept lying to me.But I frankly told you soooo many times that I hate liars.All my life being your grand daughter,I know exactly what you said is true or false.Ah gu+wife doesn't know that whenever you were fabricating,I am a listener and not a believer.I hate your lies and your betrayals.
But I love you,ah mah.
Ah gong,here I come.
I love you.

I've been through alot,alot.I'll never forgive Ricky Lai,Esther Tan,Ah Yong especially and Fat Ass Yeo Gim Gek and Sylvia Tan.

p/s: I teared+cried while typing these.