I'm feeling so sad now.A crying session has juz ended.I m all alone & tons of unpleasant memories juz well up my mind.I normally cry w/o ppl knowing.Lots of ppl thought that i came from a happy family,very well raised up,no troubles at all w/o even asking.They would say your mother what lah & your father what lah...FUCK those assholes!!!Pauline damn u!I'm the only person in this whole world who knows who and what m i!I grew up being a lot of stuffs,bashing bag,punching pole,begger,a so-called prostitute,a spitting bin & many many more.My cousins said i m not 2 associated wif them coz i m darker than them & i do not share the same surname as any of them.Can i help it?Whenever they quarrel,my grandmother would scold me & used vulgarities on me 4 bullying them when i m not even near them!That ciao jaboh lied 2 me abt the divorce!She & her fucking lover treated me like shit.Everything bad would be me.My aunty hates me 2 the core coz my cousins told her that i did not like her.FUCK them too.I loved them all so much but they all hated me a trillion!& to add 2 my misery,my dear grandfather threw $ at me yesterday!!!I'm not a begger!Please stop looking down on me!I felt so HURT.I really had too much too say abt my past,stop assuming that i lead a gd life,stop throwing $ at me,stop scolding me,stop hurting my badly wounded heart.
I knew u all wouldnt stop but i juz couldnt take much any more.
PLS help me!
Did anyone even knew that i tried 2 attempt suicides before?
Lent me a helping hand.
The hurts are too much to bear in me that i have 2 pour out every now and then or else i'll drown.
Will everyone let me lead a smooth sailing life pls....pls....pls....?
2 comments:
u know what? whatever happens, you always have me and my family. we've never looked down on you and i love you very much as a friend.. if you need a aplace to hide and let ur wounds heal, my door is always open for you. you've always been there when i am down and out, if i can, i would do anything within my means to make you smile and knw that there is stil love around. =)
Thank U so much.But the hurt will always remain,i knew it.
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